i wanna go home..

A very close friend of mine texted me a few weeks ago. i could even hear her crying as i read the sms.
she - the same person that has said to me will get married next year -, has broke up with her 7 years boyfriend.

i tried to call her as soon as possible, but could only reach her the next day.

we didn't talk much. her voice sounded so heavy and tired from all the crying, and still she couldn't hold back the tears that kept on coming again and again.
i cried too. with her.

see, i know her since i was born. we grew up together. her mom and mine are siblings. and our souls are stronger than twins.. (i think).
i was there when she started dating this guy.
i was there to witness their cute relationship. and wishing for nothing more than for them to stay in love like it is, --

so yeah, i can somehow feel how she felt at that moment.
the difference for me is that, when i wake up in the morning, i have to get busy feeding those two little chubby Rabbits, my daughters, and take care of them, and be able to concentrate on other things, while she was stuck with her stranded feelings, and cudn't put her mind out of it.
she was really in pain.

i'm so much wishing to be there by her side.

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there r sooo many reasons why i want to fly home..
but the reasons why i couldn't go, are also very strong..

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i guess these are the consequences of living on another continent other than your homeland..
u can not easily grab those who u love dearly.
but on the other side, it shows u just how dearly they are for u.
and to have people you care about, who care about u too..
that alone is something to be thankful for.

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I'm sorry guys i cudn't be there.. but i'm "there" .. hihi..

i miss u all.. so sehr..


dedicated to all the people back home
.Mama,PapaBear,Abang,Adek,MbakUci,CammyDhut,Danisha(we haven't met but i love u already),MbakAde,GuriGuri,Omadit,Fie,deb,sin,Sarahku(theoneandonly),Gita,Gat2,Moy.