new desire...

semenjak ngambek sama baking dan cooking yang sempet gagal beruntun kemaren2.. i found myself making a star made of filz. itu loh.. kain felt alias flanel.
dengan bermodalkan sama sekali gak bisa jahit, dan have no idea what so ever, cuman nekat aja.. akhirnya jadi juga tuh bintang.

belum puas, abis itu bun2 bikin tas kecil, bahannya dari kemeja papao yang udah gak dipake... maksaaa banget pokoknya pengne nyoba hari itu juga..

i just followed a tutorial in Internet (alhamdulillaaaaah ada internet utk belajar apa aja). keliatannnya ribet, tapi setelah dijalanin satu demi satu step2nya, ternyata jadi jugaaa.. horeeeee!! ^^

hahahahaha... it doesn'T look professional at all. but i'm working my way there.

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ternyata..... menjahit bisa punya efek yang sama dng baking (efek buat si bunbun tentunya).
menenangkan.. dan berantakan setelahnya.. hahahahhahaha..

dan setelah itu, bunbun seperti agak terobsesi.. browsing kesan kemari ttg jahit menjahit..
dreaming of having mesin jahit sendiri suatu saat nanti.. setelah prioritas2 lain yang tentunya lebih penting terbayarkan.. hiks. .


pengennnn banget coba bikin dress simple utk anak2.
ihhhh.. gatellllll tangannya pengen eksperimen.

walaupun, gak kebayang sama skali tehnik2nya..

bunbun reporting from the blog.

*wish me luck*

i wanna go home..

A very close friend of mine texted me a few weeks ago. i could even hear her crying as i read the sms.
she - the same person that has said to me will get married next year -, has broke up with her 7 years boyfriend.

i tried to call her as soon as possible, but could only reach her the next day.

we didn't talk much. her voice sounded so heavy and tired from all the crying, and still she couldn't hold back the tears that kept on coming again and again.
i cried too. with her.

see, i know her since i was born. we grew up together. her mom and mine are siblings. and our souls are stronger than twins.. (i think).
i was there when she started dating this guy.
i was there to witness their cute relationship. and wishing for nothing more than for them to stay in love like it is, --

so yeah, i can somehow feel how she felt at that moment.
the difference for me is that, when i wake up in the morning, i have to get busy feeding those two little chubby Rabbits, my daughters, and take care of them, and be able to concentrate on other things, while she was stuck with her stranded feelings, and cudn't put her mind out of it.
she was really in pain.

i'm so much wishing to be there by her side.

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there r sooo many reasons why i want to fly home..
but the reasons why i couldn't go, are also very strong..

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i guess these are the consequences of living on another continent other than your homeland..
u can not easily grab those who u love dearly.
but on the other side, it shows u just how dearly they are for u.
and to have people you care about, who care about u too..
that alone is something to be thankful for.

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I'm sorry guys i cudn't be there.. but i'm "there" .. hihi..

i miss u all.. so sehr..


dedicated to all the people back home
.Mama,PapaBear,Abang,Adek,MbakUci,CammyDhut,Danisha(we haven't met but i love u already),MbakAde,GuriGuri,Omadit,Fie,deb,sin,Sarahku(theoneandonly),Gita,Gat2,Moy.

friends are..

one of God's loving creation..

*i need to blabber now... u don't need to read this one*

... Dulu waktu gw kecil, waktu sd, gw sekolah di jakarta dan tinggal di bekasi.
Setiap hari dari pagi sampe malem lagi, gw ngabisin waktu di jalan.
kadang nunggu si mamah kerja sambil maen di rumah nenek, kali lain di rumah sodara, kali lainnya kursus.. never really had the time for any friendship.
untunnya gue punya sodara seumuran sama gue.. we were very close, until one day we have to split for some family issues..

Setiap malem waktu gue masih SD, sebelum tidur, mama selalu ngajarin utk baca doa dahulu. Dan gw selalu nambahin : "Ya Allah, aku pengeen punya temen. pengen disukain sama temen temen.."
i trully did that. every single nite.
mungkin karena rasa gak begitu diterima sama temen2 di sekolah. krn mungkin waktunya sendiri gak memungkinkan.. i was feeling so lonely.

Memasuki SMP, gw pindah sekolah ke bekasi. biar deket, kata bundaku. biar gue bisa punya aktifitas lain selain bolak balik jakarta-bekasi. hehe.
I have found my first bestfriend there.. her name is S.. I was soo happy and xcited. everything was soo new to me.
kita ngapa2in bareng. ke wc pun bareng.. istirahat bareng, pulang bareng, berenang bareng..
pokoknya semua pureness of friendship bareng.. :) she has become my bestfriend ever since.. mulai deh gue banyak temen2 laen, walaupun gak sedeket S. I met soo many kind-hearted person. and it seems like i was friends with soo many people. i was very happy.
dan teori gue tg persahabatan begitu simple.
u can find friends anywhere, and u can be friends with anyone..

mulai deh masuk SMA. krn gue sama S gak sekolah di SMA yang sama, kita udah mulai susah ketemu. makin jarang dan makin jarang, walaupun gak ngerubah kedeketan gue ma dia.
tapi itu ngebuka pintu2 yang lain... gue nemuin lagi orang2 yang worth to be called friends. together we experienced things.. bolos bareng salah satunya, hahaha..
Somehow, i felt secure.. i have what i always wanted.. friends.
my love life was not always been the prettiest, but that's fine cause i don'T have to face it alone.
I have my friends who encouraged me.
..
but as the years gone by, i've realized that my friendship theory is no longer true.
that we can not just be friends with just anyone. and we don't have to be friends with everyone.
some people just not find friendship as important as we might have.
that sometimes they said that they were your friends but they lied..

and so my prayer changed. I don't wish for having lots of friends anymore (of course i don't mind at all having them :) ), i just wish to have people, if not, a person, that is sincerely have me, as a friend. through thick and thin..

when people leave school and get ready to met their own life.. u can see which of them are still your bestpal.
sometimes even if u think u r ready for the worst thing, losing BF was never at all easy.
the bestfriend's definition has narrowed even more down.

i guess u can have lots of friends.. but not so many bestfriends..
coz bestfriends means responsibility, time, effort, understanding, cries, laughter, being there, accepting, trying, forgiving..
soo many emotion included inside. it is already in the package.
u can not really just play around.
u invest your love, time, and energy in there.

especially becoz of the time, that's why u can not have tooo many BF. how can u pamper them then?..

I can count my Bestfriends with my fingers. but they are more than enuf for me. they are equal with all the friends that u can collect in whole world.
they fulfil me. l'm soo blessed to have them.

being soo far away from 'em, can not be there physically, for them when they crying alone in the corner, for them when it's the hapiest day of their life,..to look at my mobile and smiles, to feel far but yet so close in heart.

makes me wonder, and doubt,. have i been a good friend all along..?
do i deserve their presence anyway?
Coz i'm sure i'm far away from being perfect friend.
and i'm not so sure I'm unreplaceable..

I really don'T know what i wanna say next.

it just that..

thank you.. for just being there.
I'm sorry for all my stupid acts.. again and again..
and, if u don't mind.. i want to keep u forever..




*till we old and wrinkle*





.your Best friend.

si kue doraemon..

Eh, Seneng banget deh.. masa ada yang rekomendasiin kuenya si Bun2 ke temn Bun2 yang anaknya mau ulang taun..Acaranya jg temen2 deket aja sih. tp tetep aja deg2an.

ihhhhh.. gimana gak seneng, kuenya Bun2 kan amatir banget. jadi kalo ada yang mesen, senengnya sampe kayak mau terbang rasanya /blush .. (hehe, berlebihan gak sih?)
Sebenernya sih, Bun2 gak tau bisa apa gak bikinin kue, selaen takut gagal (^_^), waktunya juga mefeth bangeth..
Acara ulang taunnya hr Minggu, tapi dia br bilang hr kamisnya. Dapurnya Bun2 lagi direnov, dan weekend itu udah fullbook janjian sama temen yang laen utk jagain babynya, Sabtunya kita semua musti keluar seharian krn kk dan Nara hrs nyanyi.
walhasil, bikin kue pas di hari H.

kenapa sih bun2 maksain banget?
Wong jarang2 ada yang mesen, masa sekalinya ada yang mesen ditolak? hehehe..
Walopun akhirnya kue itu jadi kado ulang taun alias gak mau dibayar (abis malu dibayar, kuenya masih jelek gitu), kayaknya tetep aja, bangga.


Jadi, malem minggunya Bun bikin cheesecake oreo.
Hr minggunya bikin kue ulang taun..
Gak tau ya, knp kalo waktu udah semakin mepet, kerja musti buru2, adaaaaaa aja yang salah. Alias ampir semuanya berjalan tak lancar.

Dimulai dengan bangun kesiangan krn abis begadang /shock .. Bun br bangun jam stg 10.. !!
Cheesecake nya salah naro, jadi kena air, walopun tetep enak sih. tp tetep saat itu gak bisa berpikir jernih, jadinya panik.com. /blur

Kuenya bingung mau bikin gimana.. krn empunya pesenan jg terserah2 aja. hmm.. jadi pengen nyoba2 yang laen. tp waktu gak cukup.
akhirnya Bun bikin chocolatecake dengan filling chocolate mint cream.
Bikin Filling juga gagal dulu pertamanya.. Krn buru2, Bun masukin adonan coklat cairnya kecepetan, gak nunggu dingin dulu.
Langsung deh, whipcreamnya... blup blup blup.. mencair.. OH Tidakkkk!!! /no
satu jam lagi udah musti berangkat..

hmm.. think2 think.. akhirnya Bun bikin whipcream lagi.. dikasuh parutan coklat mint, di mikser... hihihih,...
udah jadi fillingnya!!


satu jam lagi musti berangkat, kuenya dihiasnya gimana yaaaaa...
aduh.. emang amatir banget nih.. hihi..
bikin buttercream cepet2, bikin doraemon.. blepotan kesana kemari.. panik2, kang Nadeem ikutan dipanikin. :P

akhirnya jadi, si doraemon. Gak kayak Doraemon, tapi yang penting niat (GubRak!! udah desperate).

Abis bun cuma punya spluit satu, gede banget lagi lubangnya, jadi pas bikin doraemon, bleber kesana2 kemari. Plus gak pernah bikin buttercream alias percobaan pertama.
/sweat
Nekat bannget sih kalo dipikir2..

udah kuenya jadi harus langsung ciao. gak pake acara mandi dulu. UPS.. itu mustinya out of record.. hihi.

Mudah2an gak kapok minta dibikinin kue sama Bun.

Pelajaran hari ini:
1. segala sesuatu harus disiapin mateng2,.. gak lagi2 deh buru2 kayak gitu. hiks.. deg2annya, bow..

2. Beli spluit dan alat2 kue.. akan lebih ngebantu utk bikin kue.. hehehe

3. Nyoba2 hal baru di last minute? Mungkiin akan Bun2 lakukan lagi.. hehe, .. dasar..



pengen banget bisa bikin kue2... tapi kalo latihan, suka bingung siapa yang makannya... ..ada yang bersedia jadi tester?

bunda's third first love : the delayed report

BUlan Maret lalu, alhamdulillaaaaaaaaaah banget, gue bisa pulang ke Bekasi tercinta bersama dengan 2 krunyilku, Lady Nalea dan lady Nara..
Tapi kali ini, bunda pulang ke indonesia, on a mission. Dan itu adalah misi rahasia, berhubung yang mau didatengin gak tau kalo kita mau dateng hari itu. hehe. Kita bilangnya mau dateng dua hari setelahnya.. iya sih.. cuman beda dua hari mungkin gak ngaruh.. tapi.. ih, biarin kek, orang mo bikin surprais.. hush.. dengerin aja..

Misi Bunda kali ini adalah misi penyambutan. Hah! The Great Josh was his name.. (sekarang namanya jadi Sams, Josh itu cuma namya "inthprocess" aja. ngebingungin ya..)
Dia adalah, the unborn baby of my very own sistah: mbak Uc (miss you).

termin kelahirannya itu kira2 pertengahan maret sampe akhir maret.. Untungnye pas BunBun dateng, masih belom telat.. belom ngintip bumi die.. hihi..

Alhamdulillahnya lagi, BUnBun, Lady Nalea, dan Lady Nara dapet sambutan hangat ketika dateng. penuh dengan peluk, teriakan kaget nan histeris, dan haru biru..
Untungnya mereka gak lagi makan siang, nanti Bun2 pasti dicuekin.. My Family like to eat.. hehe, peace mah..

Mbak Uc's tummy udah gundut banget pas aku dateng.. I'm glad we still have those time before giving birth, together..

ohyaa... yang jemput di airport, Guri chan dan Gita bukan gutawa, juga ikut terkena teriakan2 histeris itu. dituduh telah bersekongkol dengan Bun2..
Makasih yaa. udah repot2 jemput. padahal macet banget.. dan Bun2 jutek banget karena udah tewas semangatnya ngurusin dua batita selama 24 jam perjalanan.. cuph"..

eniwei,...it was 16th March.
Dan tepat 6 hari setelah Bun2 dateng,...guess who else wants to come (i swear i didn't meant it as a dirty joke) .. Baby Josh.. ...
Pagi hari itu ..hari sabtu, Mbak Uc udah ngerasa2 "something going on" gitu deh di perutnya.. jadi kita cek ke dokternya (yang btw, baeeek banget)utk mastin apakah semuanya baek2 aja..
hmm.. ternyata eh ternyata.. sudah ada pembukaan, sodara2.. dan mbak Uci diminta cek in di kamar utk nunggu pembukaan berikutnya.. dan gak pulang lagi..
hhhhh...kaget. nahan napas, atur napas... iya sih, kita emng lagi nunggu2 saat ini, tapi tetep aja kaget pas dikasih tau: hari ini..

hmm...jadi kita di rumah sakit dari pagi jam stg 9..
I don't want to loose any moment, jd aku nemenin terus..
Poor mbak Uci. pembukaan nya berjalan lambat, dan dia makin keliatan lemes.. Susah utk makan, ditengah2 kontraksi langsung disuapin, biar gak lemes.
kita udah ngomongin, siap yang bisa nemenin ke ruang bersalin.. udah sedih2 gak bisa nemenin... tapi ternyata.. hari itu cuma mbak Uci yang ngelahirin di rumah sakit itu. Jadi, semuanyaaa ikutan masuk ke ruang bersalin, nemenin mbak Uci napas napas kontraksi dll..hehehe.. Kalo dipikir2 sekarang agak bodor.
Kalo waktu itu mah tegang, .. Jangan maen2 sama emosi ibu mau melahirkan.. sereeeemmm.. hiihii.. (cuph buat ibu)

akhirnya sampe jam 10 malem, mbak uc udah makin lemes, baby Josh masih nyaman aja di perut Ibu, gak mau belajar mandiri, keluar dari sana.. hhhh.. emang dasar cowok.. hehe..
Akhirnya.. no other choice.. Operasi caesar.
..
Semuanya nunggu di ruang tunggu.. tentunya,, sambil foto2!! hihihihihi...
Bukannya gak kuwatir, Bu.. tapi pengen buat nice memory ttg kelahiran Joshie.. hihi..
..
45 menit kemudian.. hhhhhh.. there he is... bobo di kamar bayi. dengan rambut hitam yang lebat. pipi merah, muka kayak mbak uci campur papa, campur abang.. He looks so sweet and cute and innocent. Kicking his tiny feet.
Dan dibalik jendela ada belasan mata yang ngagumin, udah nunggu2 pengen ngeliat..
... Teuku Muda Mahija Syams Aryasatya is born....


He's healthy alhamdulillah and looking cute.. Bun2 has definetly fallen in love again.

Wow, mbak Uci.. u r very blessed to have him..
Dia sehat dan lucu (dan jangan bilang kayak ibunya).. Semoga mjd anak yang sholeh, berbakti pada orang tua dan agama, gak suka matahin hati cewek, hehe, dan berpegang teguh sama keyakinannya.. aminnn.

u will be a great mom. u have all those love and passion. i don't have any doubt that u will be great mom..

I'm blessed that i can witnessed it all.
Mission is now, completed..

I love u Sams.....
I love u cikyen..

kliche...

Ini baru terjadi tadi pagi..
Masih pake celana jogging dan kaos belel, belom mandi, sambil nyapu sambil nelepon, sambil nungguin Nadeem dan Nara pulang jemput Nalea di kindergarten.. dan...
Bell rumah bunyi. 3 kali. Annoying banget..
Gw ngintip keluar jendela, dan , oh.. Post.
hmm.. bawa paket, kayaknya sih Mousse(did i spelled it right?) yang ditunggu2 Nadeem dari beberapa hari yang lalu.
hmm.. Biasanya gw paling males kalo musti jawab pintu, tapi.. ya udahlah.. cuek aja..
Bel bunyi lagi, ngebuat langkah gw agak lebih bergegas ke pintu. Ninggalin telpon, ninggalin sapu, buka pintu dan... Blam! pintu ketutup dari dalem.. dan gw terkunci diluar..

Sambil senyum2 penuh syok ke ibu Post yang nyerahin paket, gw ngelirik lagi ke pintu, dan.. yup.. it'S locked.. definetly locked..
i'm out the house, with no sandals, with sleeping clothes on, and no handy, no keys, ..just.. me.. waiting..

klische banget kan?
gw pikir itu cuman kejadian di film aja.. Dn setiap kali itu terjadi, gue tuh yang "ih.. masa sih dia segitu gak aware nya kalo bakal kekunci diluar?""
and then it happened to me.. paff!!



hmmmm...untungnya nadeem cuma butuh kira2 15 menitan.. jadi.. yah, gak parah2 banget lah.. ditambah lagi udaranya lagi baik hati..


owel,.. aku musti lebih hati2 laen kali. Untung aja, Nara gak kekunci didalem..
bakal panik kalo gitu ceritanya.. hiii..

klise banget....



klise banget...


klise banget...

dear blog..

miss u.. hahahaaaa.. kamu bener2 gak terawat.. nanti yaa.. besok2 aku isi lagi..

cuph!

love, deine Frauchen..

.. i miss u

a lot....

desperate....

ngintip2 blog orang.. herann.. kok orang2 bisa pada bikin blog bagus2 amat..
ada yang bahasanya puitis banget dan touchy.. ada yang resepnya cihuy2..
kok blog gue gini2 aja.. :((

sbodo ah... pemula.. boleh dong.... (alesan mlulu)


.curhat selesai.

happy b'day hippoluv...

09december2008..
the verz time evah i make a blog.. with my 1 and only (have to be!) hubby..wozie..
still dun noo what to write here.. but i figured i will just start it anyway..
sooo...

bismillahirrahmanirrahiim...

^^,